one, forever.

so as always,

things happen

which mess with my priorities.

i haven't updated my youtube channel

as much as I hoped nor have i

updated my blog as much as i hoped.

which sucks

i know.

it eats at me everyday while i do other things.

trying to maintain active in social media

is easy but also a struggle at the same time.

i'm not quite sure how to explain it.

my current habitat messes with my priorities.

so many different opportunities and experiences,

i'm greedy.

i want to experience it all.

and i wont settle for one.

just the thought of choosing only one path for my future

terrifies me.

the young me and old me inside me

screaming out for me to make good choices.

how can one just be a realtor for ever?

how can one just be a photographer for ever?

how can one just be journalist for ever?

how can one just be a teacher for ever?

how can one just dog walker for ever?

how can one just be an assistant for ever?

how can one just be a cafe shop owner for ever?

how can one just be a manager for ever?

forever might not be forever, i know.

but anything over 6 months qualifies as forever in my books.

why can't i try everything?

dabble in everything.

i like this and that too.

why do i have to choose just one?

just be one.

why are there only 24 hours in a day,

why must i be in a position from 9-5/6pm with 1hr lunch,

5 working days in a week and 2 days of a weekend?

you're considered one of the lucky ones

if you know what you want to do with your life.

you're certain, positive of that one role

you can be

day in & day out.

you love your job.

your one and only role

your one and only source 

for income.

lucky you.

i want to do this, i want to do that.

can i make money from this and money from that??

i don't need a lot but my bills say i do.

ARGHGRAGHARHGR.

my priorities are already messed up,

nothing will be fixed by the time i wake up.

I'll deal with it tomorrow.

at least for now,

i've updated my blog.

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