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if you've watched my video

'My Vision Board'

you'll know that I've made a pact with myself to be more creative

to write more

to DO more.

shit, 

I think I may be watching too many Casey Neistat vlogs...

today/night i want to talk about self image.

i don't think i'm going to come to any sort of conclusion at the end of this post

but i just really want to write something.

so

like most people i think i'm pretty self conscious.

and it differs depending on the situation.

sometimes i can not give a f*ck about any image

but then sometimes i need to comb my hair, take of my glasses and slab some eyebrows on

before i head downstairs to the supermarket.

i remember when i had a crush and we would skype

and before i was ready to turn on my camera to chat

i would whip out my hair straightener, fix my fringe, adjust proper desktop lighting

to hopefully give my makeup less, sleep less teenage complexion a fighting chance.

even for youtube videos,

before i hit record i contemplate 

MAKEUP OR NO MAKEUP

CAN I BE BOTHERED TODAY

?

usually, i can't.

lol

so what the hell am i talking about?

okkok,

i think i'm trying to say is that

i have days when i don't feel like i look my best

 ...

....

like right now

☟

but i embrace days like this.

not giving a rats asssssss.

feels good to be all mucky,

a comb? whats that?

wash my face? why?

dark circles? never looked better.

it's like if i ever got a text from someone asking

' hey baby, what you doing? ;) '

i think it would go down something like this:

hey! 

nothing much, 

just chilling at home, updating my blog.

sup?

cool. i'm good. what you wearing? ;)

my lazy homer shirt, boxers. 

glasses too and i haven't washed my hair in awhile lol

oh... um... okay... 

:)

then um, what are you not wearing? ;)

you mean a bra? yeah fuck that thing.

best part of being home is that i don't have to wear one.

do you know how uncomfortable they are?

so jealous of guys with man boobies 

cos they don't need the extra support of a bra.

if you ever come across a bra,

i highly suggest you try one on sometime.

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hello?

this blog got weird too fast too soon.